It’s funny the way sometimes changes in my life come all at once. It’s like the moon, or some other force out there in the universe has shifted and made everything seem different, even though it all looks the same. Although I am just a speck in the grand scheme of things, I am affected.
I strongly believe in the concept that everything is connected. Everyone is connected simply because they exist. It’s a bit of a frightening thought that I might be causing someone harm at any given moment. But then, if I live my life right, surely the majority of the time I must be spreading happiness, or at the very least causing someone to think more deeply about how not to make the same mistakes I did.
Anyway, back to the changes. In the past twenty-four hours my son has gone from hospitalized to sitting in at the computer at home, watching The Price is Right on Youtube and screaming as though he just won a car. A good friend of mine lost his job. True, neither of these changes are about me per se, but both affect me. However the biggest change of all: I found regret. Not just the regret I feel when I discover I should have bought that bag of milk yesterday because today it’s not on sale anymore, but life-changing regret. The kind that I can’t go back and change. Not with all the forces in the universe.
In the grand scheme of things I’m a speck. A shifter of the universe.
March 5, 2013 at 11:44 am
I want to support you and press ‘like’ but it feels like I’d be liking your hard times, which I don’t. So, I do support your post without ‘liking’ it. On the other hand, the good thing about regret is that it doesn’t have to last — not while you have friends who love you to see you to the next level!
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March 5, 2013 at 12:05 pm
Thank you my dear. Right now it’s an ongoing process that with support like yours I hope to overcome, in time. 🙂
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