The bulk of what I’ve got is time.
And work.
And procrastination.
They take up all my time.
They fill me up until my head explodes.
But it’s weird; I can’t do nothing. I used to be able to do nothing, once upon a time. I could sit and just stare out the window, or listen to music and just daydream.
Daydreaming, I guess, has become my job. My daydreams go on paper to be shared.
Does that mean I keep none of my daydreams to myself?
No.
Because some daydreams shouldn’t be shared.
And some are just too big and don’t feel like they’d fit in the world outside of my head.
They’re way too bulky.
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February 12, 2025 at 9:12 am
“Because some daydreams shouldn’t be shared.
And some are just too big and don’t feel like they’d fit in the world outside of my head.”
That took my breath away. ❤
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February 13, 2025 at 6:37 pm
Thank you! ❤
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February 11, 2025 at 6:27 am
Love this stream and insight, Linda! 💞💞💞
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February 11, 2025 at 5:07 pm
Thanks, Dawn. 😀
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February 9, 2025 at 3:56 pm
Daydreams are prewrites.
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February 9, 2025 at 5:24 pm
Oooh, I love that! 😀 ❤
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February 9, 2025 at 11:03 pm
💜
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February 9, 2025 at 3:25 pm
Being as I am, suddenly unemployed (well, for about 4 years now), I would have anticipated lots of time, but I’m not sure that it’s like that at all. My days spent achieving nothing are mostly successful and I’m beginning to understand why I was fired. The talent for squeezing time into little containers of nothingness, whilst highly specialised, is not appreciated in a capitalist society, even though the requirement to actually produce anything vanished years ago by a requirement to LOOK like you were producing something and then produce nothing that also LOOKED like something. This is where social media fits in. For survival in that digital space which is devoted to ‘you’ it is vital to ensure that all traces of ‘you’ are replaced by something you believe other people want ‘you’ to be, even though they don’t actually want ‘you’ to be, especially if your charade of being you turns out to be better accepted than theirs.
In my case the whole thing was a charade right from the start, and the big containers of nothing that I had devoted my career to began to take up space and became noticeable – paradoxically due to their vacuous nature.
And that was that.
But old habits die hard and I can’t help not continuing this devotion to nothing and so it remains terribly time consuming.
One needs only to read the above to recognise the truth in what I say.
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February 9, 2025 at 3:39 pm
Isn’t wearing masks so people see what they expect to see of us rather than the real us just a part of life, though? Both in who we are and what we appear to be doing at any given moment. Social media is just that on steroids. And at work? Part of the job is playing the game, in some cases.
Anyway, it seems to me you’ve had plenty of time for contemplation and introspection.
Thank you for making me think about it. 🙂 In that, you have indeed done more than nothing.
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February 9, 2025 at 7:41 pm
The danger is in getting home and stripping yourself of all the masks before standing before the mirror and failing to recognise yourself
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February 9, 2025 at 6:35 am
I agree! Some daydreams are not meant to be shared! I love just doing nothing, I can go for that!
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February 9, 2025 at 1:23 pm
💜💜
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February 9, 2025 at 5:27 am
I’m sure as a writer your daydreaming is important so that’s not procrastinating – that’s being creative i.e. working.
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February 9, 2025 at 1:24 pm
Right! 😀 Thanks for this, Wendy. ❤
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February 8, 2025 at 11:24 pm
I like your stream of consciousness
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February 9, 2025 at 1:24 pm
Thank you, Sadje. 😀
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February 9, 2025 at 8:21 pm
You’re most welcome
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