Started off my day telling Alex to throw away a calendar page that he had stuck to the fridge. It’s a little calendar that I get from my real estate broker every year. Problem was (and why he looked at me as if I was nuts), I told him to throw out April. Because I forgot April hasn’t already passed.
This staying at home thing is affecting me on a deep level. On the surface, I’m okay. Just flying through the days like they were nothing. (Which is part of the problem, I guess–they consist of nothing.) But it’s the underlying stuff. The effect it has going on under the rug, so to speak, that I don’t think we’ll find out about until this is all over.
Or I could just be thinking too much.
Still, I think it will be a generation or two before we forget all the lessons we learned from this, whether good or bad.
Let’s hang on to the good ones.
My mum sounded good on the phone earlier. Still very forgetful, of course, but I find she’s more “with it” when she’s craving a cigarette. It’s like all her mental energy goes into finding a way to get one, and she’s clearer than ever. She can’t have one, being in the hospital, and she can’t leave her room since there’s a Covid-19 outbreak on the floor she’s on.
At this point, I think it’s fate. One way or another, with her smoking and having to go out to a bench close to the sidewalk at the home, she was probably as likely if not more likely to catch it there. Right now she’s in a place where they’re taking every precaution known to man.
And hey, she survived literally breaking her neck …
Going out for a walk now. I need to clear these deep thoughts out of the cobwebs of my grey matter.
Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. I’ll try to reply when I’m not quite as overwhelmed.
Love to all. ❤

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April 9, 2020 at 7:01 am
It is a long period of Blursdays, that’s for sure. You’re right, your mom is in a safe place with all the extra precautions being taken. I smiled at your sense of humor that remains, despite the challenges. Your blog is a safe haven for us readers, thank you for all you do! xx
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April 9, 2020 at 9:23 pm
Thank YOU, Shelley! ❤
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April 12, 2020 at 10:15 am
You’re welcome!!
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April 5, 2020 at 5:59 pm
I feel the same way. I seem okay, but underneath everything is freaking out! 😭
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April 5, 2020 at 7:43 pm
I’m not sure if the sane thing to do is let it out or if it’s better to keep it buried in case it gains momentum and takes over.
Probably the first one is better. 😛 Hang in there!
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April 5, 2020 at 3:01 am
Yes. You are capturing what everyone is feeling. Our circumstances may be quite different but our thoughts deep inside run all the gambits trying to enhance the good we’re learning while hoping our worst fears don’t materialize. Hang in there!
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April 5, 2020 at 8:00 pm
Exactly. You too, Dar. ❤
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April 6, 2020 at 1:35 am
❤
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April 4, 2020 at 10:58 pm
It’s just your subconscious screaming for the stay at home orders to be lifted.
But I’m finding weird quirks in my life as well. I think that’s the case for everyone.
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April 4, 2020 at 9:05 pm
Thinking too much can be risky. I can’t watch/read too much news, or I’ll get too overwhelmed to function effectively. Still, I’m encouraged to see people talking and writing about lessons we can learn, like about prioritizing family, health care, science….. “Let’s hang on to the good ones,” can save us.
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April 4, 2020 at 7:32 pm
Deep breaths Linda, deep breaths.
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April 4, 2020 at 7:10 pm
Stay safe and healthy, Linda. We’ll figure this out at some point and then some “historian” who hasn’t been born yet will tell us we’re wrong.
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April 4, 2020 at 6:38 pm
I know my brain is affected by the underlying current of stress. My comments come out almost illiterate sometimes. I think we should throw out April. Then we can get to May and it will be closer to us getting let out of our confinement and maybe the virus with be gone.
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April 4, 2020 at 6:37 pm
I’m feeling it too almost a denial of my true feelings. Must appear calm at all costs.
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April 4, 2020 at 6:27 pm
All the best to your mum Linfa. I💐💐
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April 5, 2020 at 12:54 am
Oops sorry. Linda.
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April 4, 2020 at 5:43 pm
Take care
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April 4, 2020 at 5:08 pm
I am feeling very much like you Linda , it’s getting to me too but on the surface I am calm …..but really I am not.💜🌈
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