Life in progress

My addiction

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The words buzz around in my head. I see an object, or I glimpse an expression on a face and I feel like I could base an entire novel on that very subject. The words – I can see them – twitching out from my fingertips on to the blank page. I imagine them there before I type them, and then my muscles obey, my digits stretching to reach this key, that letter. Suddenly, there they are. Right there before my eyes where I can read them. Do they make sense? Are they in the right order?

I inspect them. I skim them: sometimes I read them out loud. They are never good enough the first time around.

Inspiration is like having a balloon inside my head. It grows, it expands, until I can no longer contain it – until it either gets out or I go mad. And I do, sometimes. I’m sure my family knows when I get to the point where I MUST write. It’s almost like a disease, like an addiction. I suppose it is, in a way. I ignore my family, my housework, my social life suffers, I do nothing else in my leisure time. I haven’t watched TV in over a year.

And I can’t live without it.

I suppose, as with almost anything, if you do it enough and you’re lucky, you develop at least an aptitude for it. And if you’re really lucky, you find you have a talent for it. In the case of writing, if you have a vocabulary and an adequate imagination, all you need is a knowledge of grammar and you should be good to go. And yet, when I read those who are very talented – those who make it look easy – I realise I have a long road ahead of me still.

So, I write. The compulsion to put into writing the thoughts in my head is undeniable. As long as I have this driving will, this vast, open plain of ideas, and the means to make my hands work the magic that pulls rabbits out of hats in my noggin’, my addiction will be a part of me.

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Author: Linda G. Hill

There's a writer in here, clawing her way out.

25 thoughts on “My addiction

  1. willowdot21's avatar

    I feel exactly the same!

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  2. Opinionated Man's avatar

    I feel much the same way. 🙂

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  3. quiall's avatar

    May your addiction be long and fruitfull!

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  4. olivethepeople's avatar

    “If you have a vocabulary and an adequate imagination, all you need is a knowledge of grammar and you should be good to go. ” << loved this line!

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  5. tjtherien's avatar

    interesting read here Linda… we differ in the creative process but I can relate to the addiction thing. I’ve locked myself up for weeks at a time in the past. I am much better at not doing that now…I have to be careful or I could easily find myself locked up for weeks at a time lost to the creative process again…and it’s summer the weather is still to nice to be doing that… 😉

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  6. Paul Davis's avatar

    Linda, it’s okay. I know when you read my works it might be intimidating, but you’re right up there with me.

    I kid. I know what you mean. It’s scary. But I did not kid about you writing well. Just keep at it. The past year my writing has improved far more than the past life time simply because I have actually dedicated myself to the trade. You’ve dedicated yourself too. Just keep at it 🙂

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  7. helenmidgley's avatar

    I think you’ll find your road is actually quite short. You write some great stuff 🙂

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