There are days when I wish I could just let everything go; empty my mind of all worries, thoughts, desires, and fantasies. Being empty allows me to fill myself up with whatever I want. A clean slate to write on. I wish to be a blank page.
I want to be clean. To stand in a rain storm and scrape away my cares. To unearth my stress and toss it over my shoulder–discarded–not to be seen again.
I want to drive fast down a highway with the windows open, looking forward to the horizon with no destination.
I want to sink to the bottom of the pool, unbreathing, weightless, peaceful.
I want to meditate. To drift off into the ether; to become one with the universe, and there, commune with spirits of those unliving. To join in their stories.
I want nothingness. With nothing inside me, I can fill myself with what I need.
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March 31, 2014 at 3:35 am
Go with the candle, heated pool, candles and a glass of wine.
But I think you really accomplished it already with the post.
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March 30, 2014 at 6:23 pm
To learn to be in the moment takes time Linda and it is the time worthy to learn.
When I find something very difficult to go through, I often say, “I am on the way to” learn to find time for myself, learn to give myself the needed time, learn to use my time right, so I can meditate etc. Maybe you can use these too.
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March 30, 2014 at 7:06 pm
That’s what I strive for, all the time. 🙂
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March 31, 2014 at 2:29 am
Then you are on a good way for you 😀
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March 30, 2014 at 4:22 pm
If you leave me, can I come too?
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March 30, 2014 at 7:04 pm
Sure! The more, the merrier. 🙂
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March 31, 2014 at 4:00 pm
Races to room to pack…
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March 31, 2014 at 4:12 pm
🙂
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March 30, 2014 at 4:17 pm
I want this too, I want life to be less petulant, I want to get on with my mother in law better. I want my husband to be less stressed out I want more laughter!
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March 30, 2014 at 7:04 pm
All great things to wish for, Willow 🙂
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March 30, 2014 at 2:31 pm
A pool with seawater, by candlelight and a glass of wine and a good book waiting to be explored……ahhhhhh.
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March 30, 2014 at 2:34 pm
I’m with you, Patricia. 🙂
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March 30, 2014 at 1:36 pm
I know exactly the feeling. There is never a dull moment in my home and I am always doing something. Whether it’s working, house work, being Mr. Mom, writing, etc, there simply isn’t a single minute that I have free during the day.
Sometimes I find myself thirsting for freedom from it all, just so I can recharge my mental and physical batteries. I would love to be able to simply lay down and stare at the open sky for a few hours, with absolutely no worries and the complete freedom to fall asleep if and when I wanted to.
Sometimes, when I’m listening to music, I can just touch this feeling if I try, but it’s not the same. Very much like the last line of this post, I want that nothingness, so that I too may fill anew.
Someday, perhaps…
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March 30, 2014 at 1:55 pm
Ah, to have that nothingness amongst the responsibilities of caring for a family. It begs the question, is it possible to schedule even five minutes for ourselves? My inability to have a shower in peace tells me the answer is no.
Keep dreaming, my dear, and so will I.
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March 30, 2014 at 1:17 pm
Floating aimlessly in a pool sounds like a nice idea.
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March 30, 2014 at 1:19 pm
It does, doesn’t it? An indoor pool… 😉
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March 30, 2014 at 1:20 pm
Of course. Heated too.
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March 30, 2014 at 1:22 pm
And candlelight.
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March 30, 2014 at 1:17 pm
Um, I think you just did. Because what just filled it and came out through your words was unfettered serenity.
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March 30, 2014 at 1:19 pm
I suppose I did accomplish it, for a while. Thank you very much, Susan. 🙂
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March 30, 2014 at 1:15 pm
lovely
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March 30, 2014 at 1:16 pm
Thank you, Ian. 🙂
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March 30, 2014 at 12:59 pm
You might try watching some re-runs of the soaps. 🙂 Kidding aside, I feel the same sometimes
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March 30, 2014 at 1:03 pm
Ha! Yeah, that’s a pretty mind-numbing activity.
Thanks for letting me know I’m not alone, John. 🙂
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March 30, 2014 at 1:23 pm
You are never alone, but need reminding like me.
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March 30, 2014 at 1:24 pm
🙂 Reminders are always helpful.
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