Life in progress

Nothing

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There are days when I wish I could just let everything go; empty my mind of all worries, thoughts, desires, and fantasies. Being empty allows me to fill myself up with whatever I want. A clean slate to write on. I wish to be a blank page.

I want to be clean. To stand in a rain storm and scrape away my cares. To unearth my stress and toss it over my shoulder–discarded–not to be seen again.

I want to drive fast down a highway with the windows open, looking forward to the horizon with no destination.

I want to sink to the bottom of the pool, unbreathing, weightless, peaceful.

I want to meditate. To drift off into the ether; to become one with the universe, and there, commune with spirits of those unliving. To join in their stories.

I want nothingness. With nothing inside me, I can fill myself with what I need.
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Author: Linda G. Hill

There's a writer in here, clawing her way out.

26 thoughts on “Nothing

  1. Go with the candle, heated pool, candles and a glass of wine.
    But I think you really accomplished it already with the post.

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  2. To learn to be in the moment takes time Linda and it is the time worthy to learn.
    When I find something very difficult to go through, I often say, “I am on the way to” learn to find time for myself, learn to give myself the needed time, learn to use my time right, so I can meditate etc. Maybe you can use these too.

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  3. If you leave me, can I come too?

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  4. I want this too, I want life to be less petulant, I want to get on with my mother in law better. I want my husband to be less stressed out I want more laughter!

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  5. A pool with seawater, by candlelight and a glass of wine and a good book waiting to be explored……ahhhhhh.

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  6. I know exactly the feeling. There is never a dull moment in my home and I am always doing something. Whether it’s working, house work, being Mr. Mom, writing, etc, there simply isn’t a single minute that I have free during the day.

    Sometimes I find myself thirsting for freedom from it all, just so I can recharge my mental and physical batteries. I would love to be able to simply lay down and stare at the open sky for a few hours, with absolutely no worries and the complete freedom to fall asleep if and when I wanted to.

    Sometimes, when I’m listening to music, I can just touch this feeling if I try, but it’s not the same. Very much like the last line of this post, I want that nothingness, so that I too may fill anew.

    Someday, perhaps…

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    • Ah, to have that nothingness amongst the responsibilities of caring for a family. It begs the question, is it possible to schedule even five minutes for ourselves? My inability to have a shower in peace tells me the answer is no.
      Keep dreaming, my dear, and so will I.

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  7. Floating aimlessly in a pool sounds like a nice idea.

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  8. Um, I think you just did. Because what just filled it and came out through your words was unfettered serenity.

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  9. You might try watching some re-runs of the soaps. ๐Ÿ™‚ Kidding aside, I feel the same sometimes

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