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Intuition, Fear, and What a Bird Taught Me

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Imagine it: you’re just puttering along, living your life as usual and then suddenly an opportunity arises. You have a chance to do something you’ve dreamed of doing for years – something completely different from your ordinary life. Something so “out of the box” that the mere prospect scares you as much as it excites you. It’s not something that’s too good to be true – it IS true. But it’s so far removed from your comfort zone that you begin to wonder – is it fear that’s making me hesitate? Or is it my intuition kicking in, telling me there’s something wrong with the picture, or that if I go for it, something bad will happen? What do you trust?

Many people I know would pray for guidance. Some would trust that if the universe dropped the ideal scenario in front of them, they should take it. But what if you had no actual faith? This is where I lapse into the story of the bird.

It was about twenty-five years ago, back when I owned a horse. I arrived at the barn where I had him boarded one day to find a young barn swallow stuck in the window. The walls of the barn were thick – if I was to guess I’d have to say eighteen inches to two feet, which was about the depth of the window sill. The door was only a foot away from the window, and the other members of the bird’s family were frantically flying in and out of the barn. I had no idea how long the one who had missed the door and hit the window instead had been flapping around in the window but it still had plenty of energy. I couldn’t let it die there, so I decided to try to help it.

After a few fruitless attempts to catch it, which only resulted in tiring it out so much that I was afraid it would have a heart attack, I rested my hand on the sill. It stopped trying to get out; it watched me instead. Gradually I moved my hand closer to the bird until I was able to touch it. Still, it didn’t move. Rather than trying to grab it, I nudged its breast with one finger and the tiny, frightened bird stepped on my finger.

As I stepped back away from the window, hoping the bird would stay on my finger, I marveled at the weightlessness of it – of its breath, so fast, its little eye staring at me, weighing with its own sense of self-preservation whether or not it should trust me. It did stay on my finger as I passed across the door post and as I reached the door, one of its siblings flew past my head and with it my little bird took flight.

I’ve never forgotten that experience.

Back to my original scenario: the opportunity may not be one of life or death, but imagine if it’s no less scary than trusting in something as unknown as a human to a wild bird – as unknown as God or the universe to a human. Was it intuition that drove the fledgling to trust me?

So you’re faced with an opportunity: something that’s entirely foreign and yet it’s something you’ve always dreamed of doing.

What do you trust? How do you know the difference between fear and intuition? Or do you simply have faith?

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Author: Linda G. Hill

There's a writer in here, clawing her way out.

33 thoughts on “Intuition, Fear, and What a Bird Taught Me

  1. shanjeniah's avatar

    I tend to trust my instincts and intuition. They’re usually pretty reliable.

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  2. threekidsandi's avatar

    I do not have good intuition. I cannot tell the difference between fear and intuition.

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  3. dirtdaubber's avatar

    ..and then, sometimes you just gotta DO IT.

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  4. willowdot21's avatar

    That is an amazing story Linda and you were so patient and you saved the bird,excellent!

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  5. jowensauthor's avatar

    Good story, and good post. You raise a good point. Many of us are afraid of change, and would be scared if such an opportunity would arise. I think I’d be torn, weighing the pros and cons of the situation. As a Taurus, I know I don’t really like change, but I can roll with it if I have to. And if it’s something I’ve really wanted to do, or have been thinking such, I’d be inclined to go for it after some thinking and praying for guidance. And I’d probably consult my tarot cards, too – which I just made a post about 🙂 When I went to Ireland years ago, I jumped at the chance when the opportunity arose, treating myself for having paid off my student loans, with the thought that I should do it while I could, since I might not get another chance.

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  6. joey's avatar

    I always trust my intuition.
    Great story, by the way 🙂

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  7. earth2bella's avatar

    Really beautiful story…I love barn swallows. (: It’s a thinker too, so I’m gonna work on that. Wanted to say thanks though (:

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  8. Maggie Wilson's avatar

    I used to take mediation lessons years ago. The teacher taught us an exercise in listening to your gut.

    Sit quietly and during a time when you are not likely to be interrupted. Close your eyes. Focus on something that you know that you love. Be careful to chose something that is not a person. The next step might make the exercise too difficult to complete if you do. For instance, let’s say that you love roses.

    Think of roses for a few moments. Bring an image to mind and examine it. Say to yourself, “I love roses.” Repeat this, like a mantra and while you do that, take an inventory of your physical reaction. Your breath comes easily, you have a smile on your lips, you are relaxed.

    OK?

    Now, Bring the same image to mind and examine it. Say to yourself, “I hate roses.” (see how this could backfire if it was a person or pet?) Repeat this, like a mantra and while you do that, take an inventory of your physical reaction. Your breath is shallow, or you hold your breath, your eyes frown, your mouth turns down, you feel a clench in your stomach, your fists clench, you might feel a jolt of energy that wants to lash out in protest.

    OK? Now you have your own personal yard stick to measure if something is good for you.

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  9. Maggie Wilson's avatar

    What a beautiful story, Linda! Wow, just wow.

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  10. eclecticalli's avatar

    I’ve been exploring that question a lot this year… how do I decide if what I am doing is the right decision… how do I know if I should take those risks? I think you have to try to dig into what is holding you back from making this decision — are they good reasons to stay away from the opportunity, or are they coming from a place of fear? Is it the type of things that you will always wonder “what if…?” about if you decide not to do it?
    I try to trust my gut on such things… but it take a lot of thinking and analyzing before I can get to where I know what my gut is really saying.

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  11. KG's avatar

    I have been thinking something on this line today. Weird to see those thoughts here Linda 🙂 First off, such a lovely experience with that bird.
    I am not very comfortable with change. I like stability. But if such an opportunity to do what I had dreamed of and yet being very foreign comes up (I seriously hope that I do get some surprises in life, its becoming very mundane) I would fear the change, break my head with the pros and cons, discuss with people and get their inputs. But finally I would go with my gut instincts. Sometimes the ones I have done boldly (or blindly) have yielded better results than the ones I have planned too well. I have always believed things always happen for the good, may be not for the immediate time being, but every opportunity is helping us grow in some or the other way. And that belief has kept me sane, safe, confident and content.

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    • Linda G. Hill's avatar

      I agree – sometimes when you just go for it without too much planning or overthinking, that’s the best time of all.
      Having the belief that everything happens is for the good, whether it’s immediate or the long run is an excellent way to think. It’s how I feel as well. 🙂

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  12. busymindthinking's avatar

    My mind is always busy; now I am in over-drive, in a great way.

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