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SoCS – Guilt


Ah, guilt is such a wonderful thing, isn’t it? It’s not often I feel guilty for anything – I’m rarely bad. But now…

I want to go back to Japan. This year. Yes, I know what you’re thinking: but you just went! But there’s a reason. Another concert is coming up that I want to go to. Such a flip excuse, isn’t it? Yet here I am again. Wanting to fly off and leave my kids with someone else. Just take off. So selfish. So extravagant.

It comes, for me, under the heading “you only live once.” I may just have the funds and I have a plan to get more, which I’ll write about later. My plan, if I can actually pull this off without guilting myself into not doing it, is to work my hopefully-fit-by-then ass off to save as much money as I can and do good things for other people so I feel worthy of a trip. Deserving.

I’m not writing this for praise, nor am I hoping for permission from anyone. But I’m sure many people can relate to what I’m going through at the moment. Poor me… yeah. Pthththhth. It’s a conundrum. And this has been a hard post to write and will be even harder to publish.

Meantime, my fruit fly problem doesn’t seem to be improving much. I’ve caught more in my homemade trap (a jar with a piece of tomato in the bottom and plastic wrap on top with two small holes punched in it) than the store-bought one. But there are still clouds of the little buggers in my kitchen. It’s a plague, I tell you! But at least they’re not mosquitoes. Now THAT would suck. Like a mosquito.

Time to stop. 😛

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Author: Linda G. Hill

There's a writer in here, clawing her way out.

15 thoughts on “SoCS – Guilt

  1. I know this feeling well – both of my kids are more or less in hibernation mode of late, spending a good deal of time in their rooms, occupied with their own projects.

    On the other hand, I’ve been going to write-ins once or twice a week, t’ai chi, and living a more social life. I feel sometimes like I should feel guilty, but the kids are getting the interaction they need (it’s not like they’ve become hermits – when I think of it, I’ve had individual outings with each of them; my daughter had a day-long series of adventures orchestrated by me, in accordance with her wishes, on her birthday a couple of weeks ago; we went to a double feature of kids’ movies at the drive-in movies as a family; my daughter had a sleepover at a cousin’s house, and both have had time with grandparents and cousins several times; the kids and I had a four day visit with friends five hours away, during which we all went to the movies and to a 24 hour art festival in Trenton; and next weekend the kids and I will spend four days in Plymouth, MA, at Unschoolers Rock the Campground…and we’ve got more planned, for next month and beyond…

    Whew! I’m feeling a lot less guilty about that few hours a week I spend engaged in things that I’m passionate about, away from home….and a little exhausted, too….

    I’ll bet if you think about it, your list of cool kid interactions is pretty intense, too – and, by reaching for your dreams, you’re setting a lovely example, besides…


  2. Practicalities first: try apple cider vinegar for your fruit fly trap. My daughter in Hawai’i used that and it worked really well.

    And then dreams: I do hope it will work out for you to go back to Japan because it is such a special place for you. Everyone needs a break and a treat from time to time.


  3. I say – look out Japan, here I come! Ha! I actually know people who borrow to make once in a lifetime trips. Go for it.


  4. Mix white vinegar with dish soap and somethin sweet, like sugar or juice. I leave a coupla lil bowls like that out when the apples fall, and that always traps them. Then they drown, haha! Funny yours come so early!
    I am not one to participate in guilt. You should totally do what pleases you. All moms spend lotsa time doing what pleases others (earned automatically.) People should have fun (deserving is automatic.)


  5. Guilt is a nasty thing.


  6. Who’s the band?
    If it’s Rush again, jump on that plane.


  7. I personally hope you do get back to Japan!! As for the fruit flies get a spray. xxxx


  8. They say the best watermelons are the stolen ones. Guilty pleasures are the sweetest pleasures. Go fly off to Japan, Linda, and let the world be damned.


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