Linda G. Hill

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Compulsion

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There are some things I just can’t help. Eating the last few nuts in the tin even if I don’t want them, straightening out a crooked picture on the wall, … writing a blog post even when I’m too tired to write a blog post…

It’s been a hell of a few days, and the next three aren’t going to be any better. Last week I had two days off (meaning the kids’ dad picked them up after dinner one day and brought them back after dinner two days later) but the one in I should have had a full day off had an appointment for Alex smack-dab in the middle that only I could take him to, so I didn’t really get a day off at all. August was the last time I had one of those. All this to say that I don’t have the energy to write … anything, really. I suppose this is what being a writer is. Compulsion.

Unfortunately for all of you, it means listening to me whine about how tired I am. So here’s a consolation. A pretty picture. (Hunts for picture.) Ah, here’s one from the spring:

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and look at that – it’s not even straight

What are you compelled to do, no matter what? It’s okay, go on. Admit it. We won’t judge.

 

Author: LindaGHill

There's a writer in here, clawing her way out.

55 thoughts on “Compulsion

  1. I get the tiredness and the need to rest my dear. Try to take some time each day for you.
    And if it makes you feel any better, I never take a straight photo. Every photo that I post on my blog has generally been straightened in photoshop. lol

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  2. Whine as much or whenever you need to. That’s what we’re here for — to listen. I always thought that by the time I got to this era of my life, I’d have time to fully enjoy it, do things for myself, have a bit of a break. If anything, things are more overwhelming and I’m never not tired. Where’s the punchline because this has got to be a joke! Lol Gah… :/

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  3. I so relate — past couple of weeks have been rough for me, yet I know what you mean about being compelled to do certain things no matter what. For me, it’s a daily cup of coffee. I do my best to always fit it in; well, I kind of have to, or else I get a coffee-withdrawal headache. πŸ™‚ Hope the next couple of days go better than expected and fly by for you! Good luck with everything.

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  4. Well, I’m not OCD, far from it… crooked pictures, I never even notice…but guess my compulsion would be to be distracted, impossible not to be with ADHD. I can start a comment or blog post, wander off for ages, then remember I was writing something. Of course, writing is a compulsion, anywhere, anytime, on anything, and you just have no idea how many comments I make on other’s blogs, FB messages, and Twitter (in my head)…sometimes I even post them! πŸ™‚ Hope you get some more free days to do what you want…even if it is to find pretty pictues to share! πŸ™‚

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  5. I have too many, and I share at least one of yours, so I recommend poster tack for under the bottom corners of pictures.
    Hope the rest of the week goes smoothly for you.

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  6. Every now and then you just have to get stuff off your chest, no reason to see it as complaining. We all have those certain kind of draining moments, I have never had kids but when my parents got a divorce I felt drained. Ok now to your question, When I’m up late reading a book and I’m on a chapter and it’s really long and I’m crashing. I HAVE to finish that bastard because stopping in the middle of a chapter…that’s just wrong. πŸ˜€ Hope everything gets better Linda.

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    • Thanks for your support, Wes. Much appreciated. πŸ™‚
      Yep, I’m with you on the reading thing. It’s a bit of a paradox. I read to help me sleep–to take my mind off my day–but reading keeps me awake. I can’t win!!
      Haha.

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  7. Your not whining you are stating facts!! If I have chocolate in the house it must be consumed …no saved! I like the bathrooms cleaned my way! I scratch my back and arms until they bleed…I have scars! I have to find the perfect photo for my post! ..I could go on and on then you would fall asleep and solve one of your problems!! πŸ™‚ but I have to dash now as the real world beckons…. Damn I’d rather stay here .xxxxxxxxxxx

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  8. When you are among friends it is not ‘whining’ it is commiserating! Be well my friend.

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  9. Compulsion…controls me. I set goals and the interruptions fall out of nowhere. Voila, sleep deprivation follows. If it were not for attention to details, I might do better, but I am so far not obsessive compulsive–just an unreasonable perfectionist who rinses her dishes before she washes them, measures every ingredient in a dish for the two of us, reads and re-reads every email message before sending, sorts whatever I store and re-sorts it for optimal space. You get the picture.

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  10. It really is a lovely picture, Linda. Compulsion? Don’t ask my kids because I’m sure they would fill you in on endless specifics πŸ™‚ But in general, I’m a compulsive problem solver. If I perceive something as a problem then, dang it, I’m going to solve it which tends to include endless google searches, youtube tutorials, and discussing such matters with unsuspecting loved ones who just want to finish their dinner. You could say that I continue blogging because I see it as one big problem to solve, lol! Anyway, know that I’m a fan and I’m always rooting for you.

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    • Thanks so much, Angie. πŸ˜€
      I’m the exact opposite to you – if I have a problem that’s too difficult I tend to procrastinate over it, and do easier things first. We would probably drive each other nuts if we were forced to live in the same house! Haha!

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  11. Writing…I fall asleep on my tablet in bed and wake up and pick up where I left off.

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  12. To read “just one more chapter” even though I am too tired and need to sleep and rest or get ready for work., which I am doing just now πŸ™‚

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    • You said it! I don’t borrow fiction too much, any more, because I know I’ll stay up until I finish it. You’d think by now I would know better. Another? If I can’t find something, I just keep on looking- I might have searched that room six times already, but maybe…give yourself a break Linda!

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    • Oh yes – I had to force myself last night to put my book down… and it’s the second time I’ve read it. I already know what’s going to happen! Haha.

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  13. Haha… Linda. I get it. I love to write too. I also feel compelled to straighten your spring picture! Ha! just kidding. Hope you get some rest soon!

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  14. Oh my goodness… sooooo many things… :-\

    Hope your week gets better. HUGS. (Still wishing I was there to help…)

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  15. I know what you mean. Some days there is nothing left to give. There is an odd feeling of compulsion to write- almost as instinctive as brushing your teeth. It’s there and I’m glad to have it so I can go a little bit longer.

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    • It really is as instinctive – and habitual – as brushing your teeth. Can’t go to bed without it. πŸ™‚ You’re right. It is a good thing. Thanks for reminding me, Dottie.

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  16. Marketing, I guess. I’m so tired and burned out on that side of the career that I find myself doing it more out of habit than interest. I keep fearing that forgetting will cause trouble since this year has been a tough year.

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